… I might have been born.
Another “birthday”.
Another year.
And still, the same things that were unknown before are unknown now.
Perhaps, as The Man in Black says, I should get used to disappointment:
Inigo Montoya: Who are you?
Man in Black: No one of consequence.
Inigo Montoya: I must know…
Man in Black: Get used to disappointment.
Except that rather than wanting to know who anybody else is, I simply want to know who I am.
Why is that too much to ask?
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This June has been the darkest month I’ve seen in a long time… and I mean that both figuratively and literally. (Those of you who live in my neck of the woods should have no problem understanding the literal part. >< )
But the crazy weather aside, I’ve really been struggling lately. Not only have I not been writing in this blog, but I haven’t been reading other people’s blogs either. So my apologies for being more than a little out of touch.
I’m keeping this blog open for now, if only because I have a habit of suddenly finding myself with lots to say just after I announce that I am going into hiding. I’m also thinking of starting another blogging project, which I may announce here if it ever gets off the ground.
But things may continue to be quiet. Jus’ saying.
9 responses so far ↓
Margie // June 29, 2009 at 1:34 pm |
(((((((hug)))))))
Sending a hope that someday the world wakes up and realizes that what you are feeling should never be felt.
Be very good and very gentle with yourself today.
MH // June 29, 2009 at 3:53 pm |
hugs hugs and hugs.
생일축하합니다…though it might ring kind of hollow. i know how bdays (or supposed bdays) go…
much 사랑 to you today and every day!
K // June 29, 2009 at 6:18 pm |
생일 축하합니다
“Never mind searching for who you are. Search for the person you aspire to be.” –Robert Brault
Sang-Shil // June 29, 2009 at 9:25 pm |
Thank you, Margie, for your kind words. Your voice of advocacy on behalf of adoptees like myself means a great deal to me. Now, if only more people were listening…
미의 — 고마워, 동생… for everything.
K — Thank you for the birthday wishes. Also, a quote for you: “I desire no future that will break the ties of the past.”
— George Eliot
Paula O. // July 1, 2009 at 8:21 pm |
I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately and I apologize for not reaching out sooner to see how you were doing. I can remember some very dark times of struggle myself and as Margie said, please be gentle to and with yourself.
I’m sorry June was such a difficult month and I hope that July brings some brighter days, both inside and out. May the universe shed her light onto you, my friend.
Big hugs to you.
Love,
p
Psychobabbler // July 7, 2009 at 12:44 pm |
Just wanted to wave at you and let you know I was thinking of you today. Hang in there…
Mama Nabi // July 7, 2009 at 5:18 pm |
Just popping in… thinking of you. xoxox
Sang-Shil // July 8, 2009 at 10:51 am |
Paula — thank you so much for thinking of me. I’m not sure what has gotten into me lately… and for some reason, the last thing that I’ve thought of to do is to reach out to others. It means so much that you remember me despite my silence.
Psychobabbler — thank you. *waves*
MN – thanks for stopping by, despite all the excitement that must be going on in _your_ life right now! I’ve been meaning to come by and catch up, and hope to soon!
missinpiece // July 9, 2009 at 5:00 pm |
i like any little bits that you write, gives me lots to reflect on in my own life. hope you stick with it, even through periods of silence…